I will keep on playing Owl City and Faber Drive songs till I stop missing you.
Blog's dead. Whatever. It kinda can be a private blog without privating it.
My life's has been super miserable these few days.
And I mug to forget them.
But it's no use, I'll still drown my sorrows by listening to music instead of absorbing whatever I studied.
2009 is a miserable year.
I wanna forget 2009 cause ...
But I don't wanna forget 2009 cause ...
Ahs is a miserable place.
I normally don't do emo (that's so not me) but after everything has happened, I find it hard not to.
Haven't been watching dvds, dvds hours are piling up. I'm gonna clear them all after eoys.
Eoys... I'll have to ace it. Cause I wanna get outta the miserable place.
But after everything, I don't have the mood to mug.
Which affects everything and make me sad again.
I'm gonna break this stupid cycle, I swear.
I'm just gonna keep on mugging like a nerd till eoys and forget everything in dec trip. (Yeah yeah can I even do that? Not for the mugging part. I just don't get the mood.)
Yep, dec trip. Can't wait.
Can't wait to forget everything and just live the moment.
Theory exams on the 31st Oct.
Stupid stupid, plain stupid.
I still hafta cram my puny brain with all that theory just so I can pass.
Pls, I haven't done it in so many months and right after my Grade 5 practical I hafta worry about this. (For months I've been focusing on practical only, and I practically forgot I had theory to do. I didn't even touch anything.) I forgot everything, don't bother to remember, theory's not even fun. How can I manage a pass? But after Grade 5 theory, I'm gonna burn my books.
Not thinking of going onto Grade 6 theory cause really, theory's a waste of time.
So it's either suffering for 2 weeks, or wasting my mom's hundred plus bucks, fail my theory and then re-take it in March - which also means I suffer longer.
So the 2 weeks after eoys I'll be watching dvd and mugging for theory.
Jeez, life really suck.
My brain's gonna burst someday and noone will care.
Screw everything. Screw it, screw it.
I wanna open my eyes and realise everything that happened was a dream.
I don't wanna face the reality.
Screw it.
My. Life. Is. Just. So. Miserable.
I have no idea who to tell any of this to.
One day, I'll look back and laugh it off.
And till then .. I'll just keep on playing songs by Owl City and Faber Drive till I stop missing you.
Current
Date : Saturday
Time : 11.12 pm
Music : Fireflies by Owl City
Mood : Sad, moody, easily irritated.
Eliza
P.S I don't know why, I don't feel better after typing this out. Instead I feel worse. Freak is me.
